Sorry for allat
Nov. 21st, 2025 10:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lesbocannibalI'm feeling slightly better now, Last night I got to have dinner with my wife and cuddle her and kiss her and pet her cat and watch Mythbusters, and now I'm having computer time while she plays Morrowind. I already did all my bedtime stuff so i can sleep literally whenever now. I had a stressful day. Someone didn't show to my rehearsal and I'm getting stressed about it because like, I taught important new stuff and had to space it without someone. She didn't even respond to my texts. But I did get extra rehearsal time, because the next group cancelled.
I hit breaking point last night, though. I couldn't sleep, so I asked my girlfriend to give me math problems (since that's kind of an inside joke we have). I failed to do some basic multiplication problems and then started sobbing because I felt so stupid. It was compounding with the amount of stupid I felt from my grades' slippage. I got a 9.5/16 on my presentation, and just got an 18/30 on an orgo quiz. I think I'm doing well in orgo otherwise, though, my other grades have been respectable. But I still feel stupid. Anyway. I was crying and started rambling, and my girlfriend, obviously frustrated with me, told me to take deep breaths. I waited for her to fall asleep and then I kept monologuing. Whispering to myself. She couldn't hear me, nobody could hear me. I just whispered to the air for what felt like 15 minutes straight before I fell asleep. I woke up kind of well rested, maybe? I'm still tired, but I got a lot of sleep and I don't think I feel as awful as I have for the rest of recently.
I hit breaking point last night, though. I couldn't sleep, so I asked my girlfriend to give me math problems (since that's kind of an inside joke we have). I failed to do some basic multiplication problems and then started sobbing because I felt so stupid. It was compounding with the amount of stupid I felt from my grades' slippage. I got a 9.5/16 on my presentation, and just got an 18/30 on an orgo quiz. I think I'm doing well in orgo otherwise, though, my other grades have been respectable. But I still feel stupid. Anyway. I was crying and started rambling, and my girlfriend, obviously frustrated with me, told me to take deep breaths. I waited for her to fall asleep and then I kept monologuing. Whispering to myself. She couldn't hear me, nobody could hear me. I just whispered to the air for what felt like 15 minutes straight before I fell asleep. I woke up kind of well rested, maybe? I'm still tired, but I got a lot of sleep and I don't think I feel as awful as I have for the rest of recently.
I posted my battle jacket to reddit (stupid, I know, but I got validation for it when I posted a year ago) and got a couple of hate comments. Nothing too creative, just "looks like ass" "this belongs on r/baddlejackets" and, hilariously, someone writing "not a single band patch, just leftist slogans". Are we looking at the same jacket??? I have >10 band patches and 0 leftist slogan patches... (there are 2 patches that take the stances of antipsychiatry and pro-transfeminism, but that's it). This morning I found out that somebody reposted my javket to r/baddlejackets with the caption "I think it needs more lgbt symbols and interracial lesbians since thats (sic) is all that defines the owner apparently". I was confused about the interracial lesbians part since I have no race-related slogans on my jacket, but then I remembered that I have a Vesperoan button. Did this guy seriously just zero in on a singular button and decide to choose hate?
OK, now that that's all set up. The punchline: EVERYONE ON R/BADDLEJACKETS DEFENDED ME. The hateful subreddit dedicated to making fun of battle jackets made by trans people DEFENDED ME? Most of the comments wrote variations on "this jacket is fine, there are plenty of band patches on this, you're just homophobic" which is just so funny to me. Congratulations, ya played yourself. Not even r/baddlejackets will join you in making fun of me...
FIC: AKB48, Onyanko Club - Takai Bicycle Repairs Company
Nov. 21st, 2025 05:37 amsonofgodzillaTitle: Takai Bicycle Repairs Company
Universe: AKB48, Onyanko Club
Character(s): Sashihara Rino, Takai Mamiko
Rating: U
Warnings: N/A
Summary: She had come to the house in order to try and force a conversation with Akimoto himself, and yet again had found him absent, avoiding what he didn’t want to hear, and instead leaving his wife in his stead, 26 years between them, a woman who apparently took to bicycle repairs whenever faced with a situation that she found difficult.
Length: 763 words
Author's Notes: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASHIHARA RINO!! 🎉💖🍰🎊🎂 How amazing does this woman look in her latest promo shot? Written as prompt "extra precarious employment status and knowing it" for bleak idol bingo. AKC Courtneyyyyyy Culture Festival #27: Sashihara Rino. also: external link.
( Takai Bicycle Repairs Company )
Universe: AKB48, Onyanko Club
Character(s): Sashihara Rino, Takai Mamiko
Rating: U
Warnings: N/A
Summary: She had come to the house in order to try and force a conversation with Akimoto himself, and yet again had found him absent, avoiding what he didn’t want to hear, and instead leaving his wife in his stead, 26 years between them, a woman who apparently took to bicycle repairs whenever faced with a situation that she found difficult.
Length: 763 words
Author's Notes: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SASHIHARA RINO!! 🎉💖🍰🎊🎂 How amazing does this woman look in her latest promo shot? Written as prompt "extra precarious employment status and knowing it" for bleak idol bingo. AKC Courtneyyyyyy Culture Festival #27: Sashihara Rino. also: external link.
( Takai Bicycle Repairs Company )
Nutcracker Updates!!
Nov. 19th, 2025 01:54 pmlesbocannibalOh em gee I forgot to tell you all about the finale! I’m super hexcited about it! Basically, this year’s Nutcracker is much better than it’s ever been before in the ballet club. We have totally revamped costumes and choreography, and I feel great about basically every dance except the super super beginner one but theyre beginners so what are you gonna do. Last year our “finale” was bowing by class year to a pop song :/// Nobody liked our president last year; she was basically holding us back from being great. Anyways, Finale is an actual Thing this year, with the Act II soloists coming back and doing little excerpts from their dances. I’m also there, but only as Flower Corps ☹️ It bruises my pride a little, but it’s ok. I still have a really high profile solo—a SOLO SOLO, most of other solos are “leads” with other dancers on stage at the same time. Except Clara and Nutcracker, but that obviously doesn’t count because they’re special. I wish I got to be Spanish—I actually could have made myself Spanish lead since I’m choreographing it, but I already got to do that in freshman year and want to give someone else an opportunity to shine. I wonder if I’ll teach Spanish again next year. A huge majority of eboard/high profile members of the club are graduating this year and I’m lowkey freaking out because then who’s going to run the corps rehearsals??? If I have to deal with the beginners in Party I’ll have a conniption. I could do Flowers—I know the choreo super well since we’ve had it done for a long time already and have been cleaning.
I’m off topic, let’s get back to it. I’m most excited about the end of finale. We have two Claras—act I and act II. Pretty sure we do this to be easier on the dancers/offer more people roles, but now we have a story reason for it! We’ll lean into one Clara being the “reality Clara” and the other one being the “dream Clara”. There’s a Clara switch between Battle and Snow. We’ll have them switch back during finale, and the reality Clara waves goodbye to the dream clara and then to the Nutcracker, then goes back to sleep on her couch… then she wakes up and sees the nutcracker (prop) besides her! And the music gets really big and she dances around with the nutcracker AND THEN IN THE BACKGROUND THE DREAM CLARA AND NUTCRACKER (DANCER) DANCE ACROSS THE BACK OF THE STAGE BECAUSE ITS WHAT REAL CLARA IS IMAGINING IN HER HEAD. AS SHE DANCES WITH THE NUTCRACKER DOLL. DO YOU SEE THE VISION. DO YOU SEE IT. DO YOU SEE IT?!?!?!?!?!? The Claras get to be actual main characters instead of only being in Party and Battle and like… I don’t remember what the other one is, Snow? That was how it was before, but now we END ON CLARA HOLDING THE NUTCRACKER WHILE THE MUSIC GETS REALLY BIG AND AUSGWKDHWKDBWNDBFKE ITS SOOOOOO GOOD IM SO SO SO HEXCITED RAHHHHHHHHHH
I’m off topic, let’s get back to it. I’m most excited about the end of finale. We have two Claras—act I and act II. Pretty sure we do this to be easier on the dancers/offer more people roles, but now we have a story reason for it! We’ll lean into one Clara being the “reality Clara” and the other one being the “dream Clara”. There’s a Clara switch between Battle and Snow. We’ll have them switch back during finale, and the reality Clara waves goodbye to the dream clara and then to the Nutcracker, then goes back to sleep on her couch… then she wakes up and sees the nutcracker (prop) besides her! And the music gets really big and she dances around with the nutcracker AND THEN IN THE BACKGROUND THE DREAM CLARA AND NUTCRACKER (DANCER) DANCE ACROSS THE BACK OF THE STAGE BECAUSE ITS WHAT REAL CLARA IS IMAGINING IN HER HEAD. AS SHE DANCES WITH THE NUTCRACKER DOLL. DO YOU SEE THE VISION. DO YOU SEE IT. DO YOU SEE IT?!?!?!?!?!? The Claras get to be actual main characters instead of only being in Party and Battle and like… I don’t remember what the other one is, Snow? That was how it was before, but now we END ON CLARA HOLDING THE NUTCRACKER WHILE THE MUSIC GETS REALLY BIG AND AUSGWKDHWKDBWNDBFKE ITS SOOOOOO GOOD IM SO SO SO HEXCITED RAHHHHHHHHHH
AKC Courtneyyyyyy Culture Festival #202: Hirajima Natsumi
Nov. 19th, 2025 05:46 amsonofgodzillaWe're on a Watarirouka Hashiritai kick lately, I guess, so let's talk about the group's leader, Hirajima Natsumi!
Nacchan is one of AKB's elite, a first generation original Team A member. Having auditioned in 2005, she joined the group alongside the original line up—Oe Tomomi, Oshima Mai, Kawasaki Nozomi, Kojima Haruna, Sato Yukari, Takahashi Minami, Nakanishi Rina, Narita Risa, Hoshino Michiru, and Maeda Atsuko, to name but a handful—those girls who would go on to win hearts with the release of Sakura no Hanabiratachi in 2006, as well as BINGO! and the 2008 major label re-recording of their debut single.
During the first team shuffle in 2006, Nacchan was moved over to Team B, where eventually she met Komori and became one of the names associated with the original fifth stage recording of Team B Oshi as well as the version recorded for Koko ni Ita Koto. In the seven years that Nacchan was a member firstly of Team A and then Team B, although she didn't make it to the senbatsu again, she appeared on the B sides of arguably every great AKB song, from the aforementioned Sakura no Hanabiratachi all the way through to Koi Suru Fortune Cookie)—Nacchan was basically in the group for as long as I was in the fandom.
Whilst it may seem disappointing that she wasn't able to make it back into the senbatsu, and even during the second Janken tournament lost out on a place in the second round to Komori, let's not forget that whilst Mayuyu may have been the face of Watarirouka Hashiritai, Nacchan was the leader, present from the double A side Hatsukoi Dash/Aoi Mirai, the latter being the theme tune to the anime adaptation of Sakaguchi Hironobu and Toriyama Akira's X-Box game, Blue Dragon. Nacchan's popularity within AKB was testament to a sort of sideways popularity during this point in the group's history: even if it was impossible to crack the Kami 7, there was still a chance of making an impact as a member of one of the group's many popular subunits and finding fame primarily as a member of that group and only as an AKB member secondly. Possibly it's this popularity with Warota that ensured she remained for so long with the group despite not appearing in the senbatsu. Nacchan was part of the foundations that would allow for the group's continued popularity, and that's why it's kind of sad that her time in AKB ended so abruptly.
Following a dating scandal in 2012, Nacchan was pushed into graduation, unable to dodge the issue as other more popular members had. No one wants to talk about scandals right now, I know, and in her statement, she sounded genuinely torn up, not so much about what had happened but what it has cost her—time spent with her friends in the group, time spent on the theatre's stage. The good news, however, is that her story doesn't end there. Since graduating from AKB48, Nacchan has been in a number of roles, appearing briefly in Kishiryu Sentai Ryusoulger—a show that featured cameos from both fellow Team B member, Kitahara Rie and Morning Musume's Tanaka Reina, after whom her hair was originally styled during her early Team B first stage appearances—but also taking on a significant role as Seto Rika from Merm4id in Bushiroad's D4DJ franchise. After all this time, at last, Nacchan has found her way to the centre.
Nacchan is one of AKB's elite, a first generation original Team A member. Having auditioned in 2005, she joined the group alongside the original line up—Oe Tomomi, Oshima Mai, Kawasaki Nozomi, Kojima Haruna, Sato Yukari, Takahashi Minami, Nakanishi Rina, Narita Risa, Hoshino Michiru, and Maeda Atsuko, to name but a handful—those girls who would go on to win hearts with the release of Sakura no Hanabiratachi in 2006, as well as BINGO! and the 2008 major label re-recording of their debut single.
During the first team shuffle in 2006, Nacchan was moved over to Team B, where eventually she met Komori and became one of the names associated with the original fifth stage recording of Team B Oshi as well as the version recorded for Koko ni Ita Koto. In the seven years that Nacchan was a member firstly of Team A and then Team B, although she didn't make it to the senbatsu again, she appeared on the B sides of arguably every great AKB song, from the aforementioned Sakura no Hanabiratachi all the way through to Koi Suru Fortune Cookie)—Nacchan was basically in the group for as long as I was in the fandom.
Whilst it may seem disappointing that she wasn't able to make it back into the senbatsu, and even during the second Janken tournament lost out on a place in the second round to Komori, let's not forget that whilst Mayuyu may have been the face of Watarirouka Hashiritai, Nacchan was the leader, present from the double A side Hatsukoi Dash/Aoi Mirai, the latter being the theme tune to the anime adaptation of Sakaguchi Hironobu and Toriyama Akira's X-Box game, Blue Dragon. Nacchan's popularity within AKB was testament to a sort of sideways popularity during this point in the group's history: even if it was impossible to crack the Kami 7, there was still a chance of making an impact as a member of one of the group's many popular subunits and finding fame primarily as a member of that group and only as an AKB member secondly. Possibly it's this popularity with Warota that ensured she remained for so long with the group despite not appearing in the senbatsu. Nacchan was part of the foundations that would allow for the group's continued popularity, and that's why it's kind of sad that her time in AKB ended so abruptly.
Following a dating scandal in 2012, Nacchan was pushed into graduation, unable to dodge the issue as other more popular members had. No one wants to talk about scandals right now, I know, and in her statement, she sounded genuinely torn up, not so much about what had happened but what it has cost her—time spent with her friends in the group, time spent on the theatre's stage. The good news, however, is that her story doesn't end there. Since graduating from AKB48, Nacchan has been in a number of roles, appearing briefly in Kishiryu Sentai Ryusoulger—a show that featured cameos from both fellow Team B member, Kitahara Rie and Morning Musume's Tanaka Reina, after whom her hair was originally styled during her early Team B first stage appearances—but also taking on a significant role as Seto Rika from Merm4id in Bushiroad's D4DJ franchise. After all this time, at last, Nacchan has found her way to the centre.
promoing some cool stuff
Nov. 18th, 2025 01:15 amtoothpastepancakeDon't have much of an update right now, had a bad med reaction that is also entirely kinda my fault, so my brain isn't in a good place. But! I did want to promo a few things:
Rarest of Rarepairs, my ficathon for ships with 50 or less works on AO3, is still going on at![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
toothpastejuice !
Macrocest Bingo on Tumblr is back for another year. I had so much fun with it last year!
fandomtrees is going on! Going to try and do some fills when I have more energy. Here's my tree ;)
Been filling some wishes atholiday_wishes . My wishlist is here. Let me know if you have one.
Rarest of Rarepairs, my ficathon for ships with 50 or less works on AO3, is still going on at
toothpastejuice !Macrocest Bingo on Tumblr is back for another year. I had so much fun with it last year!
fandomtrees is going on! Going to try and do some fills when I have more energy. Here's my tree ;)Been filling some wishes at
holiday_wishes . My wishlist is here. Let me know if you have one.
Unlearning Ballet-typical snobbery.
Nov. 16th, 2025 05:04 pmlesbocannibalI am. A snob! It's pretty much bred into young ballet dancers. I learned to be petty and catty, and to view pointe as the be-all end-all of good technique. Switching from high school dance classes to a college club (less formal, student-run) was a trip. I can tell that the freshmeat are the same as me: they come to rehearsal in buns and pink tights and ballet slippers, desperate to hold onto the conventions of their youth. I didn't think I would ever loosen up, but I did. I'm at rehearsal in a The Cure T-shirt, flared black leggings, and dumb socks with sushi cats on them. Like, cats inside sushi. It's hard letting go, but I genuinely feel much happier here than I did as a ballet kid. Students get to call the shots on casting and choreography and costumes, so I feel like I'm working WITH those things instead of having them forced on me. I do miss the strength I had as a ballet kid, but my technique is much better now--I look prettier and more confident on stage.
So what the title refers to is me finally getting over looking down on not being en pointe. A lot of the dancers who have no interest in pointe in this club are actually very skilled. They look beautiful, and they don't need to put their feet through hell to do it. And now I'm not jonesing for pointe in every dance I do. Well, not right now, at least. I'm chill with dancing Harlequin Doll on flat, since it's mostly jumps. I kind of wanted to petition to do it en pointe purely because of the echappe releves, which are a POINTE STEP. But I think it's fine, since I'm not really going to be turning or doing extensions. I don't need that added CLACK CLACK CLACKing in my life.
I've just been thinking about ballet so much since I saw that ballet last night. I was contemplating future roles--I'm almost sure I'll be Sugarplum next year. Who else is qualified? My dream is to be Clara-as-Sugarplum, but I would like to be a decent person and not take up all the roles. Other people deserve their time in the spotlight, too [said through gritted teeth].
Here's my favorite Sugarplum choreo:
... wow, they did her dirty with that thumbnail.
Also, we're talking about doing Cygnets for the spring show, which... well, everyone knows this one, but I'll embed the video anyway.
I was supposed to perform this 2 years ago, but was ROBBED because somebody dropped out, and we couldn't have three little swans. So my choreographer had us do a contemporary pointe dance, which I DID NOT SIGN UP FOR. I hated the music. Grrr.... I hope I never have to do another CONTEMPORARY dance as long as I live. I hate contemporary dance. (not to be confused with neoclassical or modern, although I'm not a huge fan of modern anyway--I just hate how every time I try to work with contemporary, I hate the music or the choreo or both. And it doesn't come naturally to me to choreograph myself--I only know how to choregraph neoclassical.)
Signing off now, I have a neuro presentation to do, but my head is simply swimming with ideas for future ballets!
So what the title refers to is me finally getting over looking down on not being en pointe. A lot of the dancers who have no interest in pointe in this club are actually very skilled. They look beautiful, and they don't need to put their feet through hell to do it. And now I'm not jonesing for pointe in every dance I do. Well, not right now, at least. I'm chill with dancing Harlequin Doll on flat, since it's mostly jumps. I kind of wanted to petition to do it en pointe purely because of the echappe releves, which are a POINTE STEP. But I think it's fine, since I'm not really going to be turning or doing extensions. I don't need that added CLACK CLACK CLACKing in my life.
I've just been thinking about ballet so much since I saw that ballet last night. I was contemplating future roles--I'm almost sure I'll be Sugarplum next year. Who else is qualified? My dream is to be Clara-as-Sugarplum, but I would like to be a decent person and not take up all the roles. Other people deserve their time in the spotlight, too [said through gritted teeth].
Here's my favorite Sugarplum choreo:
... wow, they did her dirty with that thumbnail.
Also, we're talking about doing Cygnets for the spring show, which... well, everyone knows this one, but I'll embed the video anyway.
I was supposed to perform this 2 years ago, but was ROBBED because somebody dropped out, and we couldn't have three little swans. So my choreographer had us do a contemporary pointe dance, which I DID NOT SIGN UP FOR. I hated the music. Grrr.... I hope I never have to do another CONTEMPORARY dance as long as I live. I hate contemporary dance. (not to be confused with neoclassical or modern, although I'm not a huge fan of modern anyway--I just hate how every time I try to work with contemporary, I hate the music or the choreo or both. And it doesn't come naturally to me to choreograph myself--I only know how to choregraph neoclassical.)
Signing off now, I have a neuro presentation to do, but my head is simply swimming with ideas for future ballets!
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Nov. 15th, 2025 06:36 pmshadarasmm, Things! since I wanted to complain about this first thing and therefore I will remember to talk about the rest too. xD
1.
Apparently at some point in the last month-ish the CVS I pick up T from changed their computer refill phone tree so that you need to respond with your voice instead of being allowed to just input numbers on your phone's keypad. Rude, honestly. This doesn't take longer, it's just annoying.
2.
That I'm actually keeping up with Critical Role: Araman astounds me. I have, however, determined that I'm more prone to listening to it as a podcast than watching it as a video, and for all that they're actor-people who like using their bodies and showing off their pretty battle maps, I do not feel like I am missing that much. Probably someone will tell me if there's an important visual moment I should look at.
3.
I've spent the last like two weeks reading the first four volumes of Dungeon Crawler Carl, which is overall very fun and makes me want to read more LitRPG stuff just so that I can have more thoughts about how LitRPG and Infinite Flow overlap in form, because DCC is exactly the kind of thing I expect from an Infinite Flow novel. xD It's pretty much gen, though, with background het vibes and if there's any queerness it hasn't pinged like at all to me, which tbh is a shame but not super surprising. It's fun. I care more about the worldbuilding about the setting than about the plot or main character, in a lot of ways, but hey I am having a great time with the secondary and side characters. And with the general goal of "fuck this system, it's fucking us over and needs to end".
4.
Oh yes the last time I posted here was just before my friend took shodan! That test went great, it was so fun, I think they could've just taken nidan but that wasn't what they wanted. I got thrown around a bunch. At some point I should get a video of the test, which I am excited for, since seeing the test and being test uke are different experiences.
Also while I'm in aikido mode: I should be taking my nidan test at the end of May at my dojo's 50th anniversary seminar! This is very exciting for many reasons!
5.
The consequences of missing the afternoon classes for my friend's test are as follows:
- had to take two online quizzes for a total of like maybe an hour of work (this is what welding did last time)
- spent the part of today's CAD class I otherwise would've spent doing basically nothing (or possibly working ahead) making up work for shop
- I guess it counts as an absence but I lost absolutely zero information via doing this so whatever
6.
I have a lot of feelings about ttrpgs via the three-shothafnia ran over Halloween season (horror is when you are made SAD about existential implications and must do terrible things because any other choice is worse) (also it's so fun playing with a new person and immediately finding a fun dynamic that proceeds to be a central axis of the game) and also prep for the 5-session short campaign she's planning to run in the new year.
aka: I have too many feelings about Eberron as a setting and I can pull more information out of my head while I'm supposed to be in class than I think. xD Love to infodump about something that was absolutely a bit of a special interest for my childself and which I still adore but haven't had reason to re-up knowledge on recently.
7.
I would like to protest that it is DARK out now and I do not like this! it is WINTER and also daylight savings happened and it makes me go UGH about how little I get to be free of work/school and able to be in the sun.
1.
Apparently at some point in the last month-ish the CVS I pick up T from changed their computer refill phone tree so that you need to respond with your voice instead of being allowed to just input numbers on your phone's keypad. Rude, honestly. This doesn't take longer, it's just annoying.
2.
That I'm actually keeping up with Critical Role: Araman astounds me. I have, however, determined that I'm more prone to listening to it as a podcast than watching it as a video, and for all that they're actor-people who like using their bodies and showing off their pretty battle maps, I do not feel like I am missing that much. Probably someone will tell me if there's an important visual moment I should look at.
3.
I've spent the last like two weeks reading the first four volumes of Dungeon Crawler Carl, which is overall very fun and makes me want to read more LitRPG stuff just so that I can have more thoughts about how LitRPG and Infinite Flow overlap in form, because DCC is exactly the kind of thing I expect from an Infinite Flow novel. xD It's pretty much gen, though, with background het vibes and if there's any queerness it hasn't pinged like at all to me, which tbh is a shame but not super surprising. It's fun. I care more about the worldbuilding about the setting than about the plot or main character, in a lot of ways, but hey I am having a great time with the secondary and side characters. And with the general goal of "fuck this system, it's fucking us over and needs to end".
4.
Oh yes the last time I posted here was just before my friend took shodan! That test went great, it was so fun, I think they could've just taken nidan but that wasn't what they wanted. I got thrown around a bunch. At some point I should get a video of the test, which I am excited for, since seeing the test and being test uke are different experiences.
Also while I'm in aikido mode: I should be taking my nidan test at the end of May at my dojo's 50th anniversary seminar! This is very exciting for many reasons!
5.
The consequences of missing the afternoon classes for my friend's test are as follows:
- had to take two online quizzes for a total of like maybe an hour of work (this is what welding did last time)
- spent the part of today's CAD class I otherwise would've spent doing basically nothing (or possibly working ahead) making up work for shop
- I guess it counts as an absence but I lost absolutely zero information via doing this so whatever
6.
I have a lot of feelings about ttrpgs via the three-shot
hafnia ran over Halloween season (horror is when you are made SAD about existential implications and must do terrible things because any other choice is worse) (also it's so fun playing with a new person and immediately finding a fun dynamic that proceeds to be a central axis of the game) and also prep for the 5-session short campaign she's planning to run in the new year.aka: I have too many feelings about Eberron as a setting and I can pull more information out of my head while I'm supposed to be in class than I think. xD Love to infodump about something that was absolutely a bit of a special interest for my childself and which I still adore but haven't had reason to re-up knowledge on recently.
7.
I would like to protest that it is DARK out now and I do not like this! it is WINTER and also daylight savings happened and it makes me go UGH about how little I get to be free of work/school and able to be in the sun.
Fight me, bite me!!!
Nov. 15th, 2025 04:06 pmlesbocannibal
So I've been LITERALLY OBSESSED with this song, and looping it nonstop! It doesn't make a ton of sense in the context of Vesperoan, but some of the lyrics fit:
"I want you to fight me, fight me, come and face me
Nothing that you say will mean a thing
So bite me, bite me, go and try me
Say it to my face, and I'll make you pay
Just 1V1 me, you won't break me
Thinking you're on top, but I know you're not
So fight me, fight me, you can bite me
Don't go crying when you fall before me"
This color palette and style is NOT really Vesperoan-core at all. Don't know how this happened. I kind of went into a fugue state where I spent 3 hours drawing this. I think it turned out well, though!
Crossposted here!
Corset Seasoning
Nov. 15th, 2025 03:54 pmlesbocannibalSo my friend (thank you, friend!!!! MWAHMWAHMWAHMWAHMWAH) bought me the Libby corset in black cotton from Timeless Trends. This corset was recommended to me by the Lucy’s Corsetry calculator, and yet it’s still too big at the ribs and the hips—it flares away from my body. I also got a white satin Slim underbust as part of their $20 mystery white corsets deal. It fits me better, but… I don’t want “slim”, damn it! I want interesting shapes! My hunch is that the Libby will fit me better as I lace it down more. I’m trying to wear it around the house and when i do menial tasks. I wore it while cooking on Wednesday, but I had to take it off after I ate because I got nauseous. I don’t think that was corset-related, though—I just didn’t eat very much until a late hour on that day.
I also wore it for a little longer while doing chores yesterday. It started to hurt my ribs at the very end, which I know is not supposed to happen... I took it off immediately after that.
Shit, now that I'm writing this post, I did a little more research--this is my first real corset, after all--and read that seasoning isn't strictly necessary, and is more for the wearer than the corset.
....
... so that means I can wear it to see a ballet tonight, right?
Okay, but real talk, I've been wearing a steel-boned finishing belt (though not an actual corset, there's no rib/hip spring) from HailSatinCorsetry for a while already. I'm used to wearing it for 8+ hours at a time. So I'll probably be fine as long as I don't overdo the lacing. I think I want to layer it over my "Morticia Addams" bodycon dress.
I also wore it for a little longer while doing chores yesterday. It started to hurt my ribs at the very end, which I know is not supposed to happen... I took it off immediately after that.
Shit, now that I'm writing this post, I did a little more research--this is my first real corset, after all--and read that seasoning isn't strictly necessary, and is more for the wearer than the corset.
....
... so that means I can wear it to see a ballet tonight, right?
Okay, but real talk, I've been wearing a steel-boned finishing belt (though not an actual corset, there's no rib/hip spring) from HailSatinCorsetry for a while already. I'm used to wearing it for 8+ hours at a time. So I'll probably be fine as long as I don't overdo the lacing. I think I want to layer it over my "Morticia Addams" bodycon dress.
FIC: No.1 Sentai Gozyuger - The Last Request!? A Shining Aura of High-Class
Nov. 15th, 2025 10:39 am
AKC Courtneyyyyyy Culture Festival #201: Komori Mika
Nov. 12th, 2025 05:46 amsonofgodzillaAnata wa kyou de Komorin oshi? In 2008, at the moment at which AKB48 was arguably approaching the peak of its popularity, Komori Mika auditioned alongside Hayashi Ayano, Kikuchi Ayaka, Maeda Ami, and Matsui Sakiko, and Iwasa Misaki, and became part of the seventh generation. After a year in the kenkyuusei, she was then promoted to Kashiwagi Team B, ensuring her place on the Koko ni Ita Koto recording of Team B Oshi, the song originally appearing as part of the team's fifth stage.
Komarin's real introduction to the audience, however, came with the release of Namida Surprise! and a role in Majisuka Gakuen before her promotion. The significance of Team B Oshi in AKB's back catalogue ensured that even though she only appeared on one other A side, Everyday, Katyusha in 2011, she was instantly recognisable.
During her time in the group, she also appeared on a considerable number of B sides from the release of RIVER onwards, not least of all Kimi no Koto ga Suki Dakara, in which she appeared as a member of the Undergirls alongside Oda Erina. Looking back at Komorin's performance in the general elections, it's actually frustrating because for each year she participated, whilst there's a decline, the shift from Undergirls to Future Girls in 2013 was probably not a very happy moment for her, there is also the sense that real success was just around the corner.
I think one of the most important indications of this is her selection for the Watanabe Mayu fronted sub-unit, Watarirouka Hashiritai 7 in 2011, a soft relaunch of the prior Watarirouka Hashiritai with two extra members in Komarin and Iwasa Misaki. This group itself was a relaunch of the Onyanko Club sub-unit, Ushirogami Hikaretai, who in turn were formed to replace Ushiroyubi Sasaregumi when Takai Mamiko graduated (more on her later)—phew. The first release for the rechristened sub-unit was Valentine Kiss, a cover of another Onyanko Club sub-unit hit, and it felt that we were one step away from Komorin reaching the kind of popularity that many of the Kami 7 received, yet, in the end, it was her choice to graduate in 2013 at the end of her agency contract, just as it was her choice to retire from the industry after this. I will not suggest that she was tired of the entertainment industry, or that she was frustrated with where she found herself in the elections and did not believe she would able to reach higher after being bullied at her school over her position, but I think that it's clear that the choice was one she made in regards to what would make her happiest so I can't really argue with that.
In 2014, she got married to a trainer at her local gym, Marianyuu, Nonaka Misato, and Nakata Chisato all reportedly attending her wedding. In 2015 and 2018, she gave birth to two daughters, finding in family something even greater perhaps than she had experienced on stage.
Komarin's real introduction to the audience, however, came with the release of Namida Surprise! and a role in Majisuka Gakuen before her promotion. The significance of Team B Oshi in AKB's back catalogue ensured that even though she only appeared on one other A side, Everyday, Katyusha in 2011, she was instantly recognisable.
During her time in the group, she also appeared on a considerable number of B sides from the release of RIVER onwards, not least of all Kimi no Koto ga Suki Dakara, in which she appeared as a member of the Undergirls alongside Oda Erina. Looking back at Komorin's performance in the general elections, it's actually frustrating because for each year she participated, whilst there's a decline, the shift from Undergirls to Future Girls in 2013 was probably not a very happy moment for her, there is also the sense that real success was just around the corner.
I think one of the most important indications of this is her selection for the Watanabe Mayu fronted sub-unit, Watarirouka Hashiritai 7 in 2011, a soft relaunch of the prior Watarirouka Hashiritai with two extra members in Komarin and Iwasa Misaki. This group itself was a relaunch of the Onyanko Club sub-unit, Ushirogami Hikaretai, who in turn were formed to replace Ushiroyubi Sasaregumi when Takai Mamiko graduated (more on her later)—phew. The first release for the rechristened sub-unit was Valentine Kiss, a cover of another Onyanko Club sub-unit hit, and it felt that we were one step away from Komorin reaching the kind of popularity that many of the Kami 7 received, yet, in the end, it was her choice to graduate in 2013 at the end of her agency contract, just as it was her choice to retire from the industry after this. I will not suggest that she was tired of the entertainment industry, or that she was frustrated with where she found herself in the elections and did not believe she would able to reach higher after being bullied at her school over her position, but I think that it's clear that the choice was one she made in regards to what would make her happiest so I can't really argue with that.
In 2014, she got married to a trainer at her local gym, Marianyuu, Nonaka Misato, and Nakata Chisato all reportedly attending her wedding. In 2015 and 2018, she gave birth to two daughters, finding in family something even greater perhaps than she had experienced on stage.
